You all might want to read "Marley and Me". Perfect book for any dog lover.
I had to put my little boy Nick to sleep a few months ago and can't really concentrate on it for any amount of time. He had seizures and it got worse as he got older. I even moved out of my bedroom with my wife to get a couple of hours broken sleep every night on the couch. He couldn't be on carpet just in case he had a seizure and peed. He also wasn't sleeping through the night as his medication made him need to urinate frequently. The medicine also attacked his muscles so he could get up to well or play ball ( which he lived for ). He was a pain in the butt and I miss him everyday:frown:
I really hope there is someplace where we meet up with our cherished friends at the end of our days
Man your story was almost identical to mine during Toby's last month.
This was what I wrote when he died on July 11, 2004:
As a young man with no direction 13 years ago, you gave me hope and ambition. When I brought you home in September 1991, you were only 12 pounds and 3 months old. I introduced you to your new family and friends. At that time I was unemployed, and had been dumped by my girlfriend and with no finances. I was a MBA graduate with a UC Berkeley undergraduate degree with nowhere to go.
I was broke, disillusioned with life and looking towards an uncertain future. As we spent time together, I knew at that time that we were best friends and will overcome obstacles that we would face. We met Glen and his German Shepherd Dog, Lobo who would be your best friend. We would run in the park, swim in the ocean and go hiking all over San Francisco. You brought me much happiness and joy, as I was able to focus in my life and career. You brought the best in me and we would strive to be the best at whatever we tried to do.
Toby, you have given me my confidence back and rebuilt strained relationships. You helped me understand that no matter what happens, "Mai Pen Rai" what will be will be. At that time we met great new friends and moved to greater pastures. I was successful in my work, and I met a beautiful woman who is now my beloved wife. We shared great heights together and never had a dull time together. Over the years, we became more than master-dog, we became father-son.
You are my only son, my best friend. I want to thank you for the best 13 years of my life. As I leave you today, I know that you are free; free to go where you want to go. Free to swim in the ocean. Free to eat bones and meat. Free to wander around and chase cats. I had only hoped that we could have spent another 13 years together. But for now we part on solid ground. You are my son and we will be together again in the future with the sun on our backs and the wind and surf at our feet. We will eat meat and BBQ together once again and we will share eternity together in the future.
Take care my son, my dear Toby Dog