I don't know what to say. I fully understand the pain. To some pets are just that pets. To some they are part of family.
I went through the samething. Took more than a year for me to recover.
If you are a cat lover, you probably already understand. Cats can be very attached to human just like dogs. If you treat them how you like to be treeated, they do the same. Unconditional love.
Meowth was just an awesome cat. Look at her, she is pretty, even prettier before she got sick, the white portion of her face is so perfect. She was extremely athletic like little ninja and very attached to human. We can kinda somewhat communicate with each other. It is really not that hard, there are so many signs and little details.
Meowth had congestive heart failure disease called "Cardiomyopathy". This disease have no prior warning or sign. Unfortunately there is no cure for this disease other than extend life for approximately 3~6 month with frequent trips to critial care and get the liquid drain out of her lungs. Same process over and over and over. Sometimes even twice a week. Each time the stay at hospital over night in oxygen chamber is $800~$1200 per treatment, small operations are $1.5k~$2k. Veternarian sure make too much money. I got really....... numbed, what can I do? when youre baby is hurt, you do whatever it takes. Let them die or save them. The choice is simple if you are in same position.
The hardest part was the pressure and worry when I am not at home. I always worry if she is ok or she clasped again. She was a strong one, she stayed with me for 9 months, even the veternarian were really amazed.
Meowth passed away on December 4th, 2004 at approximately 4:00am. She was only nine years old. I really wish I had spent more time with her the night before. I was too busy studying, that is my biggest regret. I didn't know, it just happened so fast. My other cat Mi Mi padded my face with her paw and woke me up 10 minutes before Meowth passed away. When I woke up, I knew something is wrong, when I saw Meowth on the ground in pain. I knew it is too late for me to rush her to critical care. This time it really is her time. I told Meowth "don't worry about daddy, just go, daddy will be ok, daddy love you ". 5 minutes latter her heart stopped beating. That winter was cold........
It seems like she was just sleeping. I put her body in her bed and kept her at home for 7 days before taking her to pet cemetery. When I dropped her off at pet cemetery. It was the last moment for me to see her ever again. My tears were just pouring down like a waterfall. I probably shed more tears that day then rest of my life combined. That Christmas was tough for me.
